Trust and Despair
This morning I talked to God about the state of our union, his and mine. My faith in him is constant, but my feelings are so erratic. Often, these days, I suffer from vague feelings of guilt, confusion and despair, even though I know, deep in my soul, that all is well with Him. Why is that? I'm not sure. But I'm holding on to the verses I feel he's drawn my attention to during this strange time of ambivalence. Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him (as Lord!) and he will direct your paths. So after I talked to God, he spoke to me, in two very specific ways: My morning's reading in the Daily Light was about Jesus suffering in the garden. He trusted his Father completely, yet, in the garden, as he was awaiting the arrival of the soldiers who would take him to his death, he told his disciples, "My soul is deeply grieved."